241am. The princess woke up after an emotional migraine.
It was as if 90% of her energy was drained out.
She's moving out.
Reading through all the letters that were sent to that house.
None was real, none of them came true.
She let out a smile from the sourish heart.
Walking around the house,
the guitar was spotted lying lifelessly.
Songs began to play in her head.
Singing along, she knew she'd never hear them again.
All the TV shows will never to be fun to watch for a second time.
All the games will not be exciting to be played alone.
The rides in the car lost it's chatters and laughter.
The plants were dying without somebody to water and nurture them.
She kept on walking.
Looking at every single corner the memories laid.
Knowing that it's not coming back again, she let out a tear.
Locking the door, leaving the key behind.
"Perhaps the house was meant for someone else."
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Thursday, August 6, 2009
The Tree. Pokok.
Few days ago, as I was evaluating my own life (I do that quite often), I was troubled with the thought that I'm not so "productive" as I used to be. Actually I realized this quite some time ago (as I said, I self evaluate frequently) but finally, after a great period of time, I found my answer.
Now let me first tell you about how "productive" I was previously. (Starting from when I first joined City Harvest Church)
... I get straight As in my exams.
... I finish my assignments on time with excellence.
... I can attend 2-3 cell groups a week and I never get bored.
... I can attend all the weekend services and still be excited for everyone of them.
... I serve my friends whenever I can. (Buy them food, help them carry their stuff etc)
... My family sees a major change in me. My mum was sooooo proud of me.
And the list goes on........
Basically, my capacity was great that time. And I was really walking under open heavens.
So what makes the difference between now and then?
*Jeng jeeng jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeng*
During those good old days, I was very on fire. Everyday, everything that I do is about GOD!
Things changed when I took the wrong step as my ministry and responsibilities were increasing.
When my responsibilities increased, I somewhat worry that I might not be able to do well in my studies. As a result of that.....
I shifted my focus.
I shifted my focus to my studies, I started to build on it but somehow I find myself not as effective as previously.
Then I find other areas of my life on fire too.
So all that I can do is to keep on putting off all the fires. I can no longer build and I need to fire fight all the time.
I'll give you a more in depth explanation with the cacat tree diagram below.
Looking at this tree, the trunk and the roots(God) is the basic fundamental for the whole plant. The branches (basic areas in life) is the outcome and growth that is produced by the body of the tree.
So what I did previously was shifting my focus from God (the body of the tree) into other areas such as my studies (the branches of the tree).
So when this happened, I'm actually nurturing the branches of the tree. Now we don't need rocket science to know that water and fertilizers are to be given to the root.
Therefore, I did not only failed to build my studies(the branch), but other areas(other branches) died as well.
As I was spending time with Shirley today, she advised me to really use the years of my twenties for great visions and purposes. It's the prime time of our whole life. And sadly, this is also the time where people become self-centered and they start to live for their own dreams(building their life, career etc.) As a result of that, they chose to focus on the world where their so called dreams and visions lye and lay aside their great destiny with God. This is the best time for us to do things that is greater than our own dreams. Do not limit God by telling Him what is your desired little dreams and visions, you will never know what greater plans He has installed ahead of you.
Looking at my life today, I'm 19 going 20. And I'm leading 2 cell groups, I'm the youngest cell leader in church. Every week I travel to far away places such as Seri Kembangan and Cyberjaya to preach and lead the cell group and to spend time with my members, and right now I've even been sent for mission work overseas. I'm actually reaching out to help and touch lives in the world. How many people at my age can do this? If today I were to be an ordinary person who only wants to build my career and focus only on my studies, I'm sure all these will not take place.
If you're reading this post today, I just have something for you to ponder upon.
"Is there something out there in this world, greater than your own dreams and visions, even greater than your own life and perhaps you have missed it."
Now let me first tell you about how "productive" I was previously. (Starting from when I first joined City Harvest Church)
... I get straight As in my exams.
... I finish my assignments on time with excellence.
... I can attend 2-3 cell groups a week and I never get bored.
... I can attend all the weekend services and still be excited for everyone of them.
... I serve my friends whenever I can. (Buy them food, help them carry their stuff etc)
... My family sees a major change in me. My mum was sooooo proud of me.
And the list goes on........
Basically, my capacity was great that time. And I was really walking under open heavens.
So what makes the difference between now and then?
*Jeng jeeng jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeng*
During those good old days, I was very on fire. Everyday, everything that I do is about GOD!
Things changed when I took the wrong step as my ministry and responsibilities were increasing.
When my responsibilities increased, I somewhat worry that I might not be able to do well in my studies. As a result of that.....
I shifted my focus.
I shifted my focus to my studies, I started to build on it but somehow I find myself not as effective as previously.
Then I find other areas of my life on fire too.
So all that I can do is to keep on putting off all the fires. I can no longer build and I need to fire fight all the time.
I'll give you a more in depth explanation with the cacat tree diagram below.
Looking at this tree, the trunk and the roots(God) is the basic fundamental for the whole plant. The branches (basic areas in life) is the outcome and growth that is produced by the body of the tree.So what I did previously was shifting my focus from God (the body of the tree) into other areas such as my studies (the branches of the tree).
So when this happened, I'm actually nurturing the branches of the tree. Now we don't need rocket science to know that water and fertilizers are to be given to the root.
Therefore, I did not only failed to build my studies(the branch), but other areas(other branches) died as well.
As I was spending time with Shirley today, she advised me to really use the years of my twenties for great visions and purposes. It's the prime time of our whole life. And sadly, this is also the time where people become self-centered and they start to live for their own dreams(building their life, career etc.) As a result of that, they chose to focus on the world where their so called dreams and visions lye and lay aside their great destiny with God. This is the best time for us to do things that is greater than our own dreams. Do not limit God by telling Him what is your desired little dreams and visions, you will never know what greater plans He has installed ahead of you.
Looking at my life today, I'm 19 going 20. And I'm leading 2 cell groups, I'm the youngest cell leader in church. Every week I travel to far away places such as Seri Kembangan and Cyberjaya to preach and lead the cell group and to spend time with my members, and right now I've even been sent for mission work overseas. I'm actually reaching out to help and touch lives in the world. How many people at my age can do this? If today I were to be an ordinary person who only wants to build my career and focus only on my studies, I'm sure all these will not take place.
If you're reading this post today, I just have something for you to ponder upon.
"Is there something out there in this world, greater than your own dreams and visions, even greater than your own life and perhaps you have missed it."
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
A song that touches me alot. Last time.
A very Jay Chow-ish Jay Chow written song.
Nice!
Like the lyrics.
Nice!
Like the lyrics.
The 20th Anniversary. The Happy Sister
Saturday, 10pm. Clement and Hazel rushed me to Pudu to catch a bus.
Yup. I've was rushing to JB so that I can go to S'pore the next day for the CHC S'pore 20th Anniversary and also the FOP.
I was so excited and I can't wait to go and support our dear Pastor Kevin and Esther for their testimony sharing.
So.......................
Here's how it goes..
The brother and I got up at 930am. (We were in JB!) Service starts at 11.30am. OH NOOO!!!
So we rushed like chickens crossing road to get ready, buy breakfast, pump petrol, change some SGD and head to S'pore.
It would be very jam for us to take the first link. Thus we took the second link. But the problem here is......... How to get to the Indoor Stadium from there?????!!!
Well... thanks to the commercials in the cinema, I tried GOOGLE MAP on my cell phone. And guess what, IT WORKED! It brought successfully brought us to the Indoor Stadium. (I have no idea how much will my phone bill be. 3G in S'pore. Aiksss)
12.30pm - Arrived.
Praise and Worship just ended. We're just in time for CHC TV and of course....... Pastor's sharing!!! (Clap Clap)
The place was so packed, we only got to sit at the south zone (the back of the stage) thus we were watching the screen all the time.
Pastor's testimony really made me feel proud of being a part of this great family. 8 years of God's faithfulness. =)
This is one of the shots I got from their 20 years journey short clip. Pastor Kong laying hands for someone. WOW!
One of the most amazing thing that shook me that day was the CHC Children's Church worship team. Man! You won't believe this. As young as they are, probably in 6 or 7 years old, they lead the whole Indoor Stadium congregation into praise and worship. The were so energetic and powerpacked!! They even have their own kids choir!(OMG) I was totally blown away!
(My favourite one was the acoustic guitarist. You will surely agree with me if you were there!)
This is a service that relates to me alot. Pastor Kong challenged us after his preaching to love God more and more. He expressed how grateful he is for the amazing 20 years with God.
So do I. 20 years marks the page I am today. I cannot find words to express how great God is to give me these wonderful 20 years.
20 years is the beginning of the church to move and unleash the fullnest of the power and greatness of God.
To me, it is not only the begining of adulthood. It is also the start of my real and radical journey with God!
I love You!
The end? (Touched and Sobbing*) Nah!!! I had other fun activities in S'pore too!
Which is.............................
Visiting my bestie!!! Woo Hoo!
This little chillie padi is currently studying in NUS. Out of my horror, she actually came out ALONE to a part of S'pore where she never been to before(Bugis) to meet up with me! Thank God she didn't lost her way.(Phewh~)
We had our yummy MOS burger and a quick shop in Bugis Junction.
I was so happy to see her. Really missed her when she went to S'pore. (I missed her so much that I curi curi check on her FB everyday to see how's she doing! Shhh.. Don't let her know k!)
And guess what, she bought me a cap there! I love it soooooo much! =)
Next stop - Festival Of Praise
It was truly a blast! The True Worshipers and Bob Fits were incredibly amazing. And not to forget, the man of God, Pastor Mark Conner.
This is truly a full day of excitement for me. And I know that all these would not happen if not for my sacrificial brother. Even tough he did some funny stuff such as buying a map which he doesn't know how to read, he tried his best to meet all my demands and request. He even brought me to detour the S'pore City after the all the events. I'm so blessed. Thanks koko! One of the best highlight of my trip is to be able to have a great time with you. You made me the happiest sister on earth that day! I love you!
Yup. I've was rushing to JB so that I can go to S'pore the next day for the CHC S'pore 20th Anniversary and also the FOP.
I was so excited and I can't wait to go and support our dear Pastor Kevin and Esther for their testimony sharing.
So.......................
Here's how it goes..
The brother and I got up at 930am. (We were in JB!) Service starts at 11.30am. OH NOOO!!!
So we rushed like chickens crossing road to get ready, buy breakfast, pump petrol, change some SGD and head to S'pore.
It would be very jam for us to take the first link. Thus we took the second link. But the problem here is......... How to get to the Indoor Stadium from there?????!!!
Well... thanks to the commercials in the cinema, I tried GOOGLE MAP on my cell phone. And guess what, IT WORKED! It brought successfully brought us to the Indoor Stadium. (I have no idea how much will my phone bill be. 3G in S'pore. Aiksss)
12.30pm - Arrived.
Praise and Worship just ended. We're just in time for CHC TV and of course....... Pastor's sharing!!! (Clap Clap)
The place was so packed, we only got to sit at the south zone (the back of the stage) thus we were watching the screen all the time.
Pastor's testimony really made me feel proud of being a part of this great family. 8 years of God's faithfulness. =)
This is one of the shots I got from their 20 years journey short clip. Pastor Kong laying hands for someone. WOW!
One of the most amazing thing that shook me that day was the CHC Children's Church worship team. Man! You won't believe this. As young as they are, probably in 6 or 7 years old, they lead the whole Indoor Stadium congregation into praise and worship. The were so energetic and powerpacked!! They even have their own kids choir!(OMG) I was totally blown away!
(My favourite one was the acoustic guitarist. You will surely agree with me if you were there!)
This is a service that relates to me alot. Pastor Kong challenged us after his preaching to love God more and more. He expressed how grateful he is for the amazing 20 years with God.
So do I. 20 years marks the page I am today. I cannot find words to express how great God is to give me these wonderful 20 years.
20 years is the beginning of the church to move and unleash the fullnest of the power and greatness of God.
To me, it is not only the begining of adulthood. It is also the start of my real and radical journey with God!
I love You!
The end? (Touched and Sobbing*) Nah!!! I had other fun activities in S'pore too!
Which is.............................
Visiting my bestie!!! Woo Hoo!
This little chillie padi is currently studying in NUS. Out of my horror, she actually came out ALONE to a part of S'pore where she never been to before(Bugis) to meet up with me! Thank God she didn't lost her way.(Phewh~)
We had our yummy MOS burger and a quick shop in Bugis Junction.
I was so happy to see her. Really missed her when she went to S'pore. (I missed her so much that I curi curi check on her FB everyday to see how's she doing! Shhh.. Don't let her know k!)
And guess what, she bought me a cap there! I love it soooooo much! =)
Next stop - Festival Of Praise
It was truly a blast! The True Worshipers and Bob Fits were incredibly amazing. And not to forget, the man of God, Pastor Mark Conner.
This is truly a full day of excitement for me. And I know that all these would not happen if not for my sacrificial brother. Even tough he did some funny stuff such as buying a map which he doesn't know how to read, he tried his best to meet all my demands and request. He even brought me to detour the S'pore City after the all the events. I'm so blessed. Thanks koko! One of the best highlight of my trip is to be able to have a great time with you. You made me the happiest sister on earth that day! I love you!
The Outing with Ah Fen! @ Snowflake
Finally! I get to go to Snowflake! :D :D :D :D :D
Thanks to Miss Hu who is willing to go with me!
So here's some pics!
Thanks to Miss Hu who is willing to go with me!
So here's some pics!
This is a self service shop. After you place your order and pay, they will hand you a "Beeping UFO" and you're suppose to go collect your orders when it beeps.
Before it beeps.
Before it beeps.
When it beeps!
Bestseller(Hui Fen told me it's called bestseller) and Yao Zha Kuai
Nice! Yum yum!
Burp~!Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Happy Day - Another book!!!
11am (AAHHHH!!! We're late for work!) Mr. Wong Tai Loong must be wondering where is his 2 staffs.
So there starts my journey of my cg offering counting. Today the boss brought us a helper - Mr. Andrew from the Moscow Students Fellowship. Indeed we managed to finish it faster! :D
*counting counting counting*
"Riiiiiiinnnnngg (Nokia ringtone)" Hazel's phone rang. Her mummy called. So as my part of the job was finished, I wandered into Attributes to check out the books.
*Scanning Scanning Scanning*
*Ting!!!! (Light bulb ligthed up)* a small little black book caught my eyes.
After flipping for some time, I turned to the back to check the price. Invest?(I just bought a book few days ago) Answer? YES!
As excited as I was, I continued scanning the book shelves.
*Ting!!!* another book caught my attention.
Title: The Second Part for The Man in The Mirror (something like that. I can't remember)
Suddenly I thought of a close friend who could relate to the book. So I thought perhaps I could bless that friend. But as I continue to explore the book, I realized its for men in the midlife. My friend is certainly not at that stage yet. So that middle-sized yellow book went back to the shelf again.
Joey wasn't around. So I went back to work and at the same time wait for him to come back so that I can pay for my NEW BOOK!
*Minutes later*
Joey is back! So with all excitement I went to pay for my book. (Dancing around in my heart)
I can't wait to quickly finish, pack up and start reading.
Now then, the boss came in. Oh it's salary giving time!
Guess what.. my salary was the price of the book I just bought! Woo Hoo!
I've earned myself a book today!!!
Ok Ok. I know you must be thinking "So what book did you bought actually?"
*Jeng Jeng Jeng*
Title: Spiritual Warfare for Every Christian by Dean Sherman
Ahem.. Ahem.. I have a clarification to make. The cover of my book TOTALLY DOESN'T LOOK LIKE THIS. This was the picture I found online.
Mine is a black cover with red metalic writings and a cool knight on it. (Will show you guys next time after I snap a photo of it)
Here's a brief review of the book I found online.
"God has called Christians to overcome the world and drive back the forces of evil and darkness at work within it. Spiritual warfare isn't just casting out demons; it's Spirit-controlled thinking and attitudes. Dean delivers a no-nonsense, both-feet-planted-on-the-ground approach to the unseen world."
So have you read the book? How was it?
Yes.. I've finished one and a half chapters. My point of view.... The review that on top was TOO BRIEF. I was totally blown away by the first one and a half chapters. In every sub-chapter there is something for me to learn and digest. This little book is pointing out one of the MAJOR KEY that is missing in most of our lives. Something that we have been ignorant about - The call of God for us to attack the kingdom of the devil and to break and destroy all their evil plans. By saying this, the author is saying that though we have weekend services and cell group meetings etc we may not be neccesary challenging and attacking the kingdom of the devil. We are not neccesarily doing something that will stop the works of the devil. *Whoah* Big revelation to me. This book teaches us to not only defend and protect ourselves from spiritual attacks but to actually GO OUT AND DESTROY THE WORKS OF THE DEVIL.
This book is not a book based only on studies and researches of the author, but it is built upon the author's own life experience and of course the most powerful Word of God.
Be it Christians or non Christians, the kingdom of the devil is not a stranger to us. But yet how much do we know about it? It's crucial for all of us to know what is opposing us and do something about it. So.. GET THE BOOK! (The last one in Attributes is in my house right now *Oops*) haha.. If you're interested, try asking Joey Sia or searching other bookstores alright?
Want more review about the book? Want to know what I've learnt from it? Stay tuned, sit back and wait then.
P/s: I think it would be better if you yourself can get your own personal revelation from the book. Trust me. You'll be blown away. =)
So there starts my journey of my cg offering counting. Today the boss brought us a helper - Mr. Andrew from the Moscow Students Fellowship. Indeed we managed to finish it faster! :D
*counting counting counting*
"Riiiiiiinnnnngg (Nokia ringtone)" Hazel's phone rang. Her mummy called. So as my part of the job was finished, I wandered into Attributes to check out the books.
*Scanning Scanning Scanning*
*Ting!!!! (Light bulb ligthed up)* a small little black book caught my eyes.
After flipping for some time, I turned to the back to check the price. Invest?(I just bought a book few days ago) Answer? YES!
As excited as I was, I continued scanning the book shelves.
*Ting!!!* another book caught my attention.
Title: The Second Part for The Man in The Mirror (something like that. I can't remember)
Suddenly I thought of a close friend who could relate to the book. So I thought perhaps I could bless that friend. But as I continue to explore the book, I realized its for men in the midlife. My friend is certainly not at that stage yet. So that middle-sized yellow book went back to the shelf again.
Joey wasn't around. So I went back to work and at the same time wait for him to come back so that I can pay for my NEW BOOK!
*Minutes later*
Joey is back! So with all excitement I went to pay for my book. (Dancing around in my heart)
I can't wait to quickly finish, pack up and start reading.
Now then, the boss came in. Oh it's salary giving time!
Guess what.. my salary was the price of the book I just bought! Woo Hoo!
I've earned myself a book today!!!
Ok Ok. I know you must be thinking "So what book did you bought actually?"
*Jeng Jeng Jeng*
Title: Spiritual Warfare for Every Christian by Dean Sherman
Ahem.. Ahem.. I have a clarification to make. The cover of my book TOTALLY DOESN'T LOOK LIKE THIS. This was the picture I found online.
Mine is a black cover with red metalic writings and a cool knight on it. (Will show you guys next time after I snap a photo of it)
Here's a brief review of the book I found online.
"God has called Christians to overcome the world and drive back the forces of evil and darkness at work within it. Spiritual warfare isn't just casting out demons; it's Spirit-controlled thinking and attitudes. Dean delivers a no-nonsense, both-feet-planted-on-the-ground approach to the unseen world."
So have you read the book? How was it?
Yes.. I've finished one and a half chapters. My point of view.... The review that on top was TOO BRIEF. I was totally blown away by the first one and a half chapters. In every sub-chapter there is something for me to learn and digest. This little book is pointing out one of the MAJOR KEY that is missing in most of our lives. Something that we have been ignorant about - The call of God for us to attack the kingdom of the devil and to break and destroy all their evil plans. By saying this, the author is saying that though we have weekend services and cell group meetings etc we may not be neccesary challenging and attacking the kingdom of the devil. We are not neccesarily doing something that will stop the works of the devil. *Whoah* Big revelation to me. This book teaches us to not only defend and protect ourselves from spiritual attacks but to actually GO OUT AND DESTROY THE WORKS OF THE DEVIL.
This book is not a book based only on studies and researches of the author, but it is built upon the author's own life experience and of course the most powerful Word of God.
Be it Christians or non Christians, the kingdom of the devil is not a stranger to us. But yet how much do we know about it? It's crucial for all of us to know what is opposing us and do something about it. So.. GET THE BOOK! (The last one in Attributes is in my house right now *Oops*) haha.. If you're interested, try asking Joey Sia or searching other bookstores alright?
Want more review about the book? Want to know what I've learnt from it? Stay tuned, sit back and wait then.
P/s: I think it would be better if you yourself can get your own personal revelation from the book. Trust me. You'll be blown away. =)
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