Walking pass the bookstore...

BOOKSHOP!!!

Yeah I marched myself towards it and started exercising my little fingers.

Browse.. Read.. Flip.. Flip..

*Tink Tink Tink*

As I was browsing through the book "The Secrets of Men" (I was thinking of getting it for some guy friends).. This little paragraph caught me.

Note: I'm putting it in the way I can remember, I cannot remember the exact words the author used.

One of the secrets the book stated down about men is the issue of Pornography.

The author wrote at a point of view that I had never thought of before.

According to the author, studies showed that most men felt guilty and bad after indulging themselves in pornography. The fact that a man would want to indulge himself in pornography is because he lost his completeness and wholesomeness that was originated by God in the garden of Eden. It is actually painful and sad for a man that indulges himself in pornography because of the lack of completeness in his soul.

When God created man and woman, they had such intimacy that they were naked in front of one another. They love, romance and had affections for one another openly in front of God. So there was a very deep intimacy between the 3 of them. But when sin came, Adam and Eve got the knowledge of good and evil, and God begin to cloth them with animal skins since ancient times . Thus, there is this desire in man to strip the layers off his other half(woman) to fulfill his emptiness and regain his wholeness that was intended in the first place. And yes, pornography became a 'tool' for them to regain a temporary fulfillment.

We do not need to go to university to know that pornography is something bad. The Canadian Dictionary of the English Language defines pornography as "sexually explicit material that sometimes equates sex with power and violence." (1997).

Many man in the world push their responsibilities away by saying "What to do? God created us hamsap! Or else your parents won't even give birth to you. Isn't it better that I watch porn than to have sex with some other girl."

Well, we should all be responsible with that we have done. Even tough God designed us in certain ways, He design us with the ability to CHOOSE as well. We were all given the power of freewill. It is a fact that we can choose to say Yes or No to pornography.
The one and only way to fight pornography is to look into the roots. The author has clearly stated that the reason man indulge in pornography is to seek for the wholeness that they lost in the garden. Is there any way to get wholeness to fill the incompleteness?
YES! and we can find it from the creator of all. God is the one who created man and women. He created the wholeness in us. And the best way to seek completeness is to get from the One that creates and gives. In order for a man to come out from the temptation of pornography, he has to understand that only God alone can give us to originally intended completeness. In order to fill the emptiness in him, he has to seek it and draw from God and not the other things in the world.

Hey You..

This is the lyrics of my first very very very own song to Daddy who has always been watching over me, took care of me and restored me.
Some parts of the lyrics were little thoughts that I had for Him in this season.


__Hey You__
Lyrics: Crystal Low

Verse
Hey there You there You that have been watching me
From the day that I was born

You've seen my ups and downs
Laughed and cried with me
Protected me Strengthened me and Loved me

Chorus
Oh How could this be such amazing love, given to me
Oh How I wish, I could get to know You before
King of Heaven and Earth
That died for me
and the Love of My Life
You're the Love of My Life

Verse 2
Jesus You came
So that I could live again
Showed me my true destiny

One minute please, You plead
Some other time, I replied
I've turned my back
But there you are always waiting for me

Chorus
Oh How could this be such amazing love, given to me
Oh How I wish, I could get to know You before
King of Heaven and Earth
That died for me
and the Love of My Life
You're the Love of My Life

Oh draw near to me hold me close to you take me away
Oh come and restore this little broken heart of mine
Your strength makes me new
I'll cling on to You
You are all that I need
I just want to love you


***
Hey there you there
I've been watching over you
Hush don't cry I'm here for you ;)

Specially for You :)

This is a special shell, personally picked by me and decorated by me for one of the closest person to my heart - Jan.
Hope you'll like it.
Will let you see the real thing when you come back.
Miss you always :)

It spells f.i.c.t.i.o.n

241am. The princess woke up after an emotional migraine.
It was as if 90% of her energy was drained out.

She's moving out.
Reading through all the letters that were sent to that house.
None was real, none of them came true.
She let out a smile from the sourish heart.

Walking around the house,
the guitar was spotted lying lifelessly.
Songs began to play in her head.
Singing along, she knew she'd never hear them again.

All the TV shows will never to be fun to watch for a second time.
All the games will not be exciting to be played alone.
The rides in the car lost it's chatters and laughter.
The plants were dying without somebody to water and nurture them.

She kept on walking.
Looking at every single corner the memories laid.
Knowing that it's not coming back again, she let out a tear.

Locking the door, leaving the key behind.
"Perhaps the house was meant for someone else."

The Tree. Pokok.

Few days ago, as I was evaluating my own life (I do that quite often), I was troubled with the thought that I'm not so "productive" as I used to be. Actually I realized this quite some time ago (as I said, I self evaluate frequently) but finally, after a great period of time, I found my answer.

Now let me first tell you about how "productive" I was previously. (Starting from when I first joined City Harvest Church)
... I get straight As in my exams.
... I finish my assignments on time with excellence.
... I can attend 2-3 cell groups a week and I never get bored.
... I can attend all the weekend services and still be excited for everyone of them.
... I serve my friends whenever I can. (Buy them food, help them carry their stuff etc)
... My family sees a major change in me. My mum was sooooo proud of me.
And the list goes on........

Basically, my capacity was great that time. And I was really walking under open heavens.

So what makes the difference between now and then?

*Jeng jeeng jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeng*

During those good old days, I was very on fire. Everyday, everything that I do is about GOD!

Things changed when I took the wrong step as my ministry and responsibilities were increasing.
When my responsibilities increased, I somewhat worry that I might not be able to do well in my studies. As a result of that.....
I shifted my focus.
I shifted my focus to my studies, I started to build on it but somehow I find myself not as effective as previously.
Then I find other areas of my life on fire too.
So all that I can do is to keep on putting off all the fires. I can no longer build and I need to fire fight all the time.

I'll give you a more in depth explanation with the cacat tree diagram below. Looking at this tree, the trunk and the roots(God) is the basic fundamental for the whole plant. The branches (basic areas in life) is the outcome and growth that is produced by the body of the tree.
So what I did previously was shifting my focus from God (the body of the tree) into other areas such as my studies (the branches of the tree).
So when this happened, I'm actually nurturing the branches of the tree. Now we don't need rocket science to know that water and fertilizers are to be given to the root.
Therefore, I did not only failed to build my studies(the branch), but other areas(other branches) died as well.

As I was spending time with Shirley today, she advised me to really use the years of my twenties for great visions and purposes. It's the prime time of our whole life. And sadly, this is also the time where people become self-centered and they start to live for their own dreams(building their life, career etc.) As a result of that, they chose to focus on the world where their so called dreams and visions lye and lay aside their great destiny with God. This is the best time for us to do things that is greater than our own dreams. Do not limit God by telling Him what is your desired little dreams and visions, you will never know what greater plans He has installed ahead of you.

Looking at my life today, I'm 19 going 20. And I'm leading 2 cell groups, I'm the youngest cell leader in church. Every week I travel to far away places such as Seri Kembangan and Cyberjaya to preach and lead the cell group and to spend time with my members, and right now I've even been sent for mission work overseas. I'm actually reaching out to help and touch lives in the world. How many people at my age can do this? If today I were to be an ordinary person who only wants to build my career and focus only on my studies, I'm sure all these will not take place.


If you're reading this post today, I just have something for you to ponder upon.
"Is there something out there in this world, greater than your own dreams and visions, even greater than your own life and perhaps you have missed it."

...Visual DNA...

A song that touches me alot. Last time.

A very Jay Chow-ish Jay Chow written song.
Nice!
Like the lyrics.