That's one of the things that hit me most when I first came to KL. With good choices comes good results, bad choices comes bad consequences. We can't run from it. The final say of our lives is in our hands.
3.33am I was reading through a few blogs me friends. Some had a great life - studied abroad, went touring all around Europe and Asia, shop all they want, and are happily attached. Some was pretty sad - emo posts.
Everyone did what they wanted to. Most of them followed their heart and feelings. So it kept me thinking.. What have I been doing these years? For me, I've been following my head.
Since 3 or 4 years back, I got tired of my messy life of following my heart. I learnt to do what's right instead of what feels right. It wasn't easy at the beginning, but I pulled through. I learnt self-control, discipline and at times, putting up a show(you can't break down in public can you?) My life improved. Everyone saw the change in me. It was productive and fabulous. At some point, I forgot how was it like to follow the heart.
I had great dreams and great visions. Great big ones for nations.
But tonight, I'm gonna have a little balance. Let's follow the heart. Home's always a place where I can do so. I sit in various unglam positions in front of my homies, slept with my mouth wide open on the couch and sing as loud as I want. I really appreciate all of them for putting up with me.
Tonight, I'm writing a song. A song of all my worries, all my fears and all my disappointments. So here comes the head saying: "What if people knows about it and stumbles?"
So I told the head: "Hey, I'm not a hypocrite. My heart is heavy tonight and there's nothing I got to hide."
So it goes......
The clock's ticking on the wall
When will it ever stop
People walking in the mall
Trying out that beautiful top
Friends for life is what they call
But who's there when your tears drop
In love with you now I fall
But things just ain't how I thought
Chorus:
How long more is this gonna stay
How far more is the promises you made
I'm losing it without you
Can't take the distance anymore
Let me feel you
One more time please
Ok I'm pretty sleepy now. Verse 2 and bridge? To be continued :)
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