Desires.

Well, if you've been following my blog, you will realized that it's a blog that you can 'learn' from. Not that I'm very good in philosophies or whatsoever, it's just that I'm a thinker and I get excited over the revelations that I get rather than my mood swings or emotions. And besides, it would be a great thing that others can gain from my posts too.
But today, I guess I'm gonna talk about myself for a little.These few weeks has been very exciting, full of ups and downs, challenging and fulfilling!
I have been constantly enlarging myself with different tasks, spontaneous decisions, meeting different expectations. But His faithfulness never ends. =)

As I grow, the things around me will 'grow' too. And eventually they grew old and die or some decided to ran away from home! So this is the season that I need a lot of new things. But then, I can only wait and pray. No money lah $_$
Let's look at the list...

1. Mattress. (The one I'm sleeping on now totally koyaks. Every night I can feel the spring pocking my back!
2. Purse. (The current beautiful purple purse is now known as The big-hole purple purse.)3. Bed sheets. (BIG BIG hole on my bed sheet!)4. Ear phone. ( AC is coming. Some music will definitely help in the long Q. Maybe an IPOD TOUCH with some games would be even better! =P)
5. Laptop. (check out the terrible keyboard.)6. Shoes/Pumps/Flats (Need something comfy for the 5 days of AC.)
7. A new pair of wedges. (The old one died long time ago)
8. Clothes. (The last top I bought was the subzone T-shirt ='( )
9. Lomo camera. (Always wanted to explore lomography. But knowing myself, I was afraid that I'll be broke buying and developing films. Perhaps anyone wants to borrow me their camera for a day or 2?)
10. Make up. (That is the little compact powder that I have left and the REMAINING LENGTH of my eye liner. No joke!)
Ok that is the 10 things. There are ALOT more. I'm too lazy to list them down...

Oh wait! And not forgetting, I want a BB so that I can keep in touch with Kathy and others who are overseas.

Oh well................... Without them, I'm still surviving today. So I suppose I can still survive until the $$$$$$ or *blessing* come in. So, pray with me folks! *mwahs*

T.R.U.T.H

As I was doing my devotion and reading the bible today, i word that really captured my attention and hit me hard is the word TRUTH.

It's a very simple word, a word that may not even capture our attention, but yet it is a very powerful wordl. So people ask, why do we believe in Jesus? Most of us will say it is because of His love. But taking a deeper thought, what makes His love more powerful than the love that other 'gods' give is that His love is the truth. We hold on, we believe, we love, because He is true.

When Adam and Eve sinned, the highlight is actually not on the fruit that they ate, but it's on the life of truth that they failed to live.They hid, they ran, they accused one another and they failed to face the truth that they had done something wrong. Just like all of us today. I believe not many of us has the courage to strip our masks off and tell the world who we really are. Our life is surrounded by sin. But how many of us can stand up and tell people how ugly we are? If this is the truth to you, I believe you still do know Jesus. You do not know His love at all.

1 John 4:17-19 (New King James Version)

The Consummation of Love

17 Love has been perfected among us in this: that we may have boldness in the day of judgment; because as He is, so are we in this world. 18 There is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. But he who fears has not been made perfect in love. 19 We love Him because He first loved us.

His love is to enable us to have boldness when our sins are judged.
His love casts out all fear. And that includes the fear of rejection from people, the fear of losing the good impression people have towards you.
His love is patient and understanding in a world of intolerance.
His love brings clarity of mind to those who are confused, rest to the weary, hope to the hopeless and strength to those who feel that they can't go on.
His love can heal and mend a broken heart.
His love drives away darkness.

There is no problem too big for His love to contain. It is so pure and simple. But for a lot of people, it could be the scariest thing on earth for them. And that is the ultimate goal that the devil wants to achieve - to cause people to fear light and desire darkness so that they can be added as a captive to him.

If you cannot live in truth, you are the first one rejecting yourself.

I've been through darkness. I loved the way it protected my ugliness. But one day light came in. It showed me truth. It wasn't easy. But the day I stepped in, I never have to live in darkness again.

3 John 3:3
3 For I rejoiced greatly when brethren came and testified of the truth that is in you, just as you walk in the truth.

We live because of truth so we need to live in truth and show the world truth.

Easter.

This post is written specially for my beloved CG members. I'm so proud of all of you for working tirelessly in bringing your friends to church in every big day. You guys are really AMAZING!

But in the midst of our hard work, let's not forget the true purpose of Easter. Let's not forget the message and real meaning of Easter.
Easter is the celebration of the resurrection of our Lord Jesus Christ. But in the midst of our busyness, our big day, our events, our new friends, let's not forget to give thanks to the one who died for us and rose again that we may have a new life.

As all of us know, Adam and Eve sinned against God and since then, the relationship between human beings and God was broken. And the consequences of sin is death, but because God loved us so much, He sent Jesus to die on the cross. So that He as a sinless man would be crucified with all our sins and that we may be pure and holy again through Him. And the best thing is, He conquered death and rose again and defeated the power of Satan. The resurrection of Christ is so important that our it is the foundation of our faith. Do read http://www.konghee.com/www/2010/03/did-jesus-resurrect-from-the-dead/ and learn about Jesus' resurrection.

Today, as we work hard for Easter, I would like to share with you the story of Mary and Martha.
^{Luke 10:38-42 (NLT)
38} As Jesus and the disciples continued on their way to Jerusalem, they came to a certain village where a woman named Martha welcomed him into her home. ³⁹ Her sister, Mary, sat at the Lord’s feet, listening to what he taught. ⁴⁰ But Martha was distracted by the big dinner she was preparing. She came to Jesus and said, “Lord, doesn’t it seem unfair to you that my sister just sits here while I do all the work? Tell her to come and help me.”

⁴¹ But the Lord said to her, “My dear Martha, you are worried and upset over all these details! ⁴² There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”

Just like Martha, we may all be distracted or even felt that things were unfair when we serve the Lord.
Perhaps you may be trying to get the attendance from your group members but they have been reluctant in inviting their friends and they replied you late.
Or you may even feel that it is unfair that you have to arrange transport for everyone while the other members can enjoy going to church without going through all the fuss you are experiencing.
Or you may feel that it is unfair because you feel that you are working harder than any other member to bring your friends and you are not really appreciated.
Or you may even feel stress because you have 100 tasks ahead of you and I still push you to bring your friends to church for the weekend.

So perhaps these would be the thoughts that came through your mind..
I'm so frustrated! My group members are not cooperative. They're not replying my smses. I waste my money to text them and they take my sms for granted!
Or.. Why must I be the one who is arranging the transport? Can't someone else do it. It's so unfair!
Or.. I've been trying very hard to invite my friends. But they are just not responding. Other members have friends who are easier to deal with. Of course they can invite more.
Or.. I have my assignments, exams, quiz, now have to deal with Easter some more?! Burn out!
** Turn to your neighbor and say: I know she is not talking about you!**

Let's go back to the story in the bible. Mary was sitting at the feet of Jesus. She was spending time with Him and listening to His teachings. And because of that, she is not worried and upset about all the details. Does that mean that Mary was lazy to serve dinner to Jesus? No! Mary too loved Jesus as much as Martha. But her priority was different. She prioritized her relationship with Him over serving Him while Martha thought that she has to serve Him to prove her love to Him.

So could it be that because Martha did not spend time with Jesus, she was serving Him without knowing Him. And by that, she was serving without purpose and meaning. And because of that, she was distracted in her serving and she started comparing herself with her sister. Serving was no longer something personal that she wanted to offer to the Lord. And thus, she got offended at the end.

Guys, I know you guys want to work hard for Easter. We are all excited for the multiplication that is coming.
⁴² There is only one thing worth being concerned about. Mary has discovered it, and it will not be taken away from her.”
Jesus said that there is only one thing to be concerned about, that is your relationship with Him. Do you know Jesus enough today? Do you know who is this God you are serving? Do you know the purpose of you bringing friends to Easter? What is the reason behind this hard work?

This Easter, even though we're bringing our friends, attending service with our friends and family let's prepare our hearts to get to know Jesus personally again. Let's desire and expect for more than what we already have.
Getting to know Jesus is a journey. And there is no end to it.
Serving Jesus is a joy. And it will be even joyful when you work partnering the holy spirit.
When you know Jesus, He will never be taken away from you.

I pray that this Easter, you will be able to encounter Him in a whole new level. Remember, when you take one step towards God, He will run 100 steps towards you.